One is the Loneliest Number…Good Thing We are Never Alone!

Its that time again! I went to my mission reunion around conference time, and all the elders I knew were either married or engaged and almost everyone (married that is) had kids. To add to this on a daily basis, I found out that another friend of mine is engaged! Yes I am happy for them, but at the same time I feel like a massive piece…

Its interesting to think about the trials that we MUST pass through in life to become like our Father in Heaven. Were it not for this stretching of our patience and faith, we would have no way to really know how to be like our Father for we have never gone through the same things he has.

Yes we think a lot about he knows what we are going through, but reverse the thought. We need to know what he has gone through, and is going through if we are to obtain the mind of God.

Last night I had an opportunity to give a blessing to a young lady in my ward and, not boasting of my self, I felt incredibly close to my Father in Heaven. As I receive more and more opportunities to give blessings and serve and follow the spirit I draw nearer to Him. I can feel his presence ever closer.

When these opportunities come, the numbness or emptiness of being single or lonely goes away. For this I am grateful to my God.

Now why would I share such an experience? Well I shared it because I think these kinds of thoughts aren’t shared enough.

“And we talk of Christ, we rejoice in Christ, we preach of Christ, we prophesy of Christ, and we write according to our prophecies, that our children may know to what source they may look for a remission of their sins.”

Do we talk of Christ, or rejoice in Christ? Well I want to be one that can say this scripture with conviction.

Now with these things said, I say the following: When I was at my mission reunion I felt out of place and uncomfortable among people I loved, which was nothing to fault them. I don’t know why but the marriage thing really bugs me unlike anyone else I know. Its as if I am the only person on the planet thinking about it, which I know can’t be true.

That said, why would I feel out of place? I think it is in part because as crazy as this may sound, “Marriage between man and woman is essential to His eternal plan,” and as such I don’t feel whole without my other half whoever that might be. I have learned that lesson, the lesson I would like to learn now though is how the bleen am I supposed to make that commandment of being married happen?

Going back to the before mentioned principle of service = joy, I sort of missed that principle with the last few splurges I went on.

1) I became a fast food junkie, eating out like 1 – 3 times a day Mon – Sat.
2) I bought a longboard, probably in part do to a quarter life crisis or something.
3) I immerse myself into the gospel, my calling, and work so as to escape the other things.

Although the 3 point isn’t bad of itself, it can become bad if taking over the other aspects of life like mine was. That said I would rather spend too much time doing that than some of the other things people spend their time doing!

Why do I write all this? I write it in hopes that someone will learn something from the situation in which I am currently in. What, I don’t really know but something!